Four years ago my life changed when I became a wife to the man that I fell head over heels in love the moment I met him… too bad the night I met him, he was on a blind date.
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Photo by Kristin ViningÂ
Sometimes I think about my life with John and I don’t know how I got so lucky.  He truly is the most amazing man that I’ve ever met.  He loves me hard and he’s a good person with a heart that I can’t put into words.  To me, those are some of the most important traits.  Don’t get me wrong… he has his flaws… obsession with golf, soccer and Carolina basketball, his love for wine and IPA beers (sometimes that love gets the best of him, even while we’re on our baby moon), he tells the same stories over-&-over-&-over again and at times, I believe he loves Jamaica more than me…  Thankfully, those little flaws make him the sweet man that he is and I wouldn’t trade him (or his quirks) for anything in this world.  I hate to brag, but I know that I hit the jackpot when it comes to finding my soulmate.  We have a cute life together that is about to get sweeter in 10 short weeks.  Thankful doesn’t even begin to describe how I feel.
I can’t believe it’s been 4 years! 🙂
Photo by Kristin ViningÂ
It’s fun to reflect, right???  It’s crazy to look back at what life was like when we celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary.  Last September/ October  we were about to close the doors (temporarily) on our struggle to become parents.  Through our journey, I documented my feelings and emotions through a very personal blog (separate from Be Pretty).  Today, I went back through my journal entries from a year ago… two days before celebrating our 3rd anniversary we went through our 3rd and final round for 2012 at the fertility clinics.  Sometimes, as depressing as it may sound, you need a little reminder of what life was like… or what life could be like.  My jaw dropped when I read this… it’s a distant memory from a dark cloud in our life.
Thankful that this little man of mine (the hubs) is still by my side!
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Two weeks later we learned that our last procedure for 2012 didn’t work… only days after celebrating our 3rd wedding anniversary together.
It’s unbelievable what a year difference will make… even during your darkest days, it’s amazing how life, your life, can turn right around.
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This was written on October 8th, 2012… days before, my hubby, Kristin Vining and myself hiked Crowders Mountain to soak up some serenity and take a few pictures. Â The purpose of this shoot was to capture what we thought would be a positive pregnancy… but we both knew in our hearts it wasn’t our time.
This portrait will be framed in our little blessings nursery one day. Â As a reminder of how sweet life really is and how life should never be taken for granted.
A reminder to never give up on hope! Â
….one year later, one anniversary later, my how things have changed.
Photo by Kristin ViningÂ
Fast forward… a year later… those fears have left our side and our prayers have been answered! Â All we have is 10 weeks left as a family of two. Â I get chocked up thinking about what it’s going to be like when Johnny wheels our son and myself from the delivery room to postpartum in the hospital. Â I truly have the most amazing hubby to thank for giving me the gift that I’ve always wanted… motherhood.
Happy four years to my best friend… next year we will ring in year five with a nine month old!
During the two-week-wait I went through 24 tests. 🙂
We found out we were expecting, sold our condo, moved and signed a contract to build a home… all in the same month.
Photo by Kristin Vining  – the day we experienced our very first ultrasound and heard our baby’s heartbeat.
Celebrating my very first mothers day as a family of (soon-to-be) three.
Our sweet son that we will soon meet… in 10 short weeks.
What an amazing year it’s been and as I approach my 30th week and feeling uncomfortable, scared of those first signs of stretch marks, watching the scale tick higher, taking in rude comments, caring too much about what other people think about my million baby posts, etc., this reflection process was just what I needed as a reminder. Â To be grateful, no matter how deep that stretch mark might be, that I’m pregnant with a child that is ours.
Closing the doors to year three… the year that brought us closer together.Â
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